On A God Encounter

On A God Encounter

I won’t deny that recently, my blogging has taken a far more spiritual posture than it has in times past.

I write on what I’m feeling, on what I know, and on what I’m experiencing. I can honestly say the only explanation for my posts being filled with Christian themes, bible verses, and ‘religious’ undertones is that it’s entirely what I’ve been filled with. I can’t really describe the shift that’s been happening.

First- from changing a lot of my forms of entertainment to Christian sources. My music has changed, my old magazine subscriptions cancelled, and new ones purchased. My book shelves are now being lined with some of the most progressive and passionate evangelical authors out there. My weekends look a bit different.

Sundays I wake up genuinely excited for church. Waiting a full week between services just doesn’t seem like enough.

And over the past weekend at Devoted, I had some pretty major takeaways from some incredibly powerful, real, and relatable women.

So really, what’s shifted? I kept wondering and questioning the same thing myself. Am I on some sort of kick? Where is the fire coming from? How long is it going to last?  …{Because motivation up, motivation down. That’s the way it goes – am I right?

I’ll wrestle with these emotions  of “Do I stay or do I go?”, “Am I in the right place?”, “Am I with the right people?”, “Am I doing the right thing?”, “But where am I going next??”

Oh how wonder is difficult but beautiful thing.

We’re following a God we can’t see, in a lifetime we can’t measure, for an eternity we can’t fathom. Faith isn’t a bunch of facts [Bob Goff].It’s when we start treating it as such that we’re left feeling empty-hearted.

So as often as my moments of limited comprehension circulate, I’m reminded of one. simple. truth.

What a God! His road stretches straight and smooth. Every God direction is road-tested. Everyone who runs toward him makes it. (Psalm 18:30 MSG)

Oh right. When we keep Him at the center, things will fall into place.

If that wasn’t enough realization for me in one week, yesterday, during lunch with a girlfriend she profoundly said to me:

“Kaitlyn, I know you’ve been a Christian for almost your whole life, but I really believe God is doing something new in you. And sometimes when you’re looking for direction, you just have to stay. Get planted. Ground down. Be still, and wait for further guidance. God will reveal His will to you, by the convictions of your heart, in His timing.”

Eye bulge. Gulp. A dry mouth swallow.

I heard the message loud and clear. My job is not to know why, how, or when. I’m simply told to obey, not to worry about the outcome. We keep shouting our opinions; but God keeps asking about our hearts. God isn’t an editor, He’s a creator; He’s not looking for typos in our lives, He’s looking for the beauty in them [Bob Goff].

“Often the reason we’re in the dynamic or the relationship we’re in, is because we’re being trained in patience. He is chipping away at everything that doesn’t look like Jesus. Remodeling. Remaking. We’re asked to stop holding on to what he’s sculpting away. To just cooperate! The sanctification, the process by which you are changed, is His work. Not ours. I think we can all agree, that trying to change ourselves is exhausting (Priscilla Schrier). We have to choose to live from God’s love, not for it (Andi Andrew).

If you could even say there’s a goal to one’s faith, the goal of it all would be a God encounter – for yourself, and for others. Not being told, not the mere sight or reading of a scripture, but the deep, soulful, heartfelt evidence of Christ as a living and breathing thing, making his presence and His word ever known to you.

We can’t even fully grasp it; we can’t ‘show’ or ‘prove’ it on call. It doesn’t work that way, and that might be my favorite part of faith. It’s majestic. It’s mysterious, but it’s never fleeting. Even when we can’t explain things, we can’t envision the reason, or the navigate the course, it’s there. We will run out of resources, energy, & competency on our own accord –  every single time. But God doesn’t need a nap or a snack before dealing with our mess.

It’s through this seeking and longing that at some point, at some moment, we’re given pure testimony and we’re moved. It might be in a whisper, it might be a shout, it might be a soft touch, or a total wakeup call. But if we’re not looking for it, we’ll miss it. It’s never been about a condemning religion, but a relationship. 

Growing this relationship, like any, is a key component of actually experiencing it on a day-to-day basis. Amidst our entirely sinful nature, His grace has given us a choice – a simple opportunity to believe and to love (like He does). To openly accept whatever gifts and expressions he’s specially crafted for each of us to carry out as a child of God.

His plan for me is entirely different than His plan for you. But I can guarantee one thing, it’s always an invitation to play bigger. A direct call out to stop selfishly giving into whatever ‘perceived’ constraints are in our way [depression, anxiety, fear, lack of commitment, loss, negativity, victimization, vulnerability, forgiveness, anger, disorder, financial worry, etc]. The beautiful thing is He finds us in the holes we dig for ourselves. Where we see failures; God sees foundations [Bob Goff].

It’s claiming that whatever it is you need, you have enough of it for today. Until the sun rises again tomorrow, and he renews you with just enough vigor for that day.

Half-hearted investments won’t build anything in this world. We like to complicate it, but the message is so very simple. For what he’s really asking us to do is to:

“Brighten up the world by reflecting who I AM”.

Here’s to looking for and believing for God encounters. Here’s to discovering more of the limitations of me, and more of the increase in He. 

x Kaitlyn

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4 Comments

  1. JIMMIE INGRAM
    March 16, 2015 / 6:20 pm

    VERY GOOD !!!!

  2. Sean Breslin
    March 18, 2015 / 1:45 pm

    Great post, and I love the new look of the blog.

    • March 26, 2015 / 4:17 pm

      Thanks, Sean! 🙂 Appreciate it.

  3. Kate
    May 9, 2015 / 12:20 pm

    Kaitlyn – I came looking for your blog this morning. Knowing you would have the words I needed to see and to hear and to let sink in. Stay present in what God is doing through you – it’s such a blessing we all crave. And thank you so much for sharing your journey.

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